HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KASHA[19 yrs!!! ]! I LOVE YOUUUUU!!!
I wanted to send her a gift but dammit i didn't get enough time =[
also today these girls are suppose to come after my home gurl at 4 pm, so as long as my mom is here ontime I will be there for her.
Pray for us. lol . jk U KNOW HOW I DO!
laterz.
-- Mrsz. Guap
Saturday, February 9, 2008
02.08.08 [yesterday]
I forgot to post a blog yesterday, and yesterday was the worse! Lets go through the events
1st: I was running late to school because of my hair! this freaking afro would not be tamed i finally gave up when i got to school and just let it all out! =[ It wa hot as hell. I'm not not obsessed with how i look but it seems as though other people are. One of my fellow seniors kept making references to Don King. By second hour I was sick of the frustration [heat] So I asked my teacher for a rubberband {he gave me 2} so I finally tackled my hair [ LOL ] when I came back we had to finish out key questions as well as out APE [Advance Placement Economics] workbook pages. I could not concentrate [I swear I have ADD....ooo a butterfly! ] because there was too much commotion around me. I'm guessing that its because of the fact that that was the day that we had to decided whether we wanted to take the course as an Advance Placement course or a Honors course [there is no regular] I {of course} wanted to take it A.P. so that I won't have to repeat it in college and waste credits on something I already learned. Next I had lunch it was blah I didnt eat until AFTER lunch because I was at a loss for energy. I ate with my bestfrizend Lynn and this guy who's presence alone annoys me [ name will be withheld] so yeah I didn't like lunch too much I spent it sending Lynn a variety of unimportant and pointless text messages [ooo fun :-/ ] okay so then I went to T.V. production and watched Missy Elliott's Music Video in 3-D ummm we used "gels" which is a trans parent filter for lights [to change the colors of the lights] the colors weren't all that right for it but we could see some of the 3-D it was pretty cool. Umm then I went to school for the senior picture [for which i was wearing this blinding lime-green shirt and matching laces and earings--green is my class color] The picture was not going to be taken. I was like what ever I still got out of class [my last class] 30 minutes early [yahoo!] so I walked around danced to my MP3 player [freaking out freshmen and sophmores] because they don't know that i dont give a "whoot" about who sees me "acting a fool."
now...
when i went home...
the day went ....
SOUTHBOUND [on I-95] << i hope that runs north and south lol
um okay so I get home and my mother begins to "bug" me
first its my room needing to be cleaned. I was tired ..why? from my lack of sleep I have a hard time sleeping early
next.
She wants me to fold sheets with her. Understandable keep in mind I finished my room and I'm still tired...
okay
so we fold sheets
she begins to get on my case about not having a sheet on my bed. I had a sheet out but that wasnt the one she wanted me to use...wow! so now after she leaves I put on the one SHE wanted me to use. I am still tired , how ever now that I have been fighting sleep i can not sleep because I am restless so I start texting people and watching t.v . I am just about to sleep when I get a message from Anthony saying something to the effect of "I am planning something crazy for tonight" now he is not talking about me because he is not in the distance to plan something crazy with me so I say what? and he says something close to " I don't wnat to tell you because I don't want you to worry" now if you don't want me to worry then why tell me that your not going to tell me something that will worry me ?? [got it?] So now I AM WORRIED and I reply "yeah like im not already worried] and so he basically tells me he is planning to jump off a bridge in a car and jump out of the car with a parachute.............
.
.
.
.
.
THIS PISSED ME OFF. I mean what is his life not valuable? does he want to be Jackie Chang? NEGRO PLEASE! so yeah I say " have fun" he says "Oh word" or something like that and I say yeah cause I cant tell you anything you are on your grown... Now I dont know if he can read or not and he says he sees how it is and something about he's on his own? ok yeah so I go off blah blah blah i cant remember everythingi said then i told him to get at me when he is ready to be a man and stop thinking about him self and start caring about us. Because it seems like he always just thinks about him him him. okay so now he is liek what ever bye which kind of pissed me off more. and I sent him a long ass text being sarcastic about his life and blah blah blah saying he has it so damn easy which i know isnt true but what ever i was mad and wanted to piss him off for pissing me off. so now he calls me. I ignore him
he calls again
i answer:
"hello"
"[muffle muffle] shit about my life"
"what?"
"you don't know shit about my life"
"good bye"
click
I didnt want to hear his cursing and what not so I hung up so after that he calls and calls and clals and i hit reject reject reject then he sent me a text why did you hang up I said becauseI dont want to hear your cursing and hesaid call me now.
see
he lost his mind for a minute
I'm not his child
so
I said
excuse you?
and walked out the room leaving my phone to charge
and he said call me please
please call me
about 3 texts and a missed call l came back in the room
called him he says hello and i said what
yes
i know
rude..
so?
anyway he said he is only gonna say htis one time nad proceeded to tell meSOME of the shit he has been through and iono he sounded... sincere he ended up saying that no matter what he is gonna love me.. maybe now he knows how i feel cause no matter what I'm gonna love him 2.. but umm yeah I decided to tell him about the shit i went through in Jamaica and with my family about how I use to be a fighter and how I didnt have a fairytale past. Its not something I share with everyone the only people who heard this much about me are Lynn and Aakashaa and I think I told Nika some... actually that reminds me I need to let her know because she is my bestfriend but she doesn't know much about me in terms of my past. btu I let it outI let him understand how much I love him and I always will but yeah .. through out that entire thing I ddndt want to deal with anyone but my mom was getting on my case the whole time and took my bad mood personally I didnt want to explain to her what was going on so I let her believe what she wanted to believe. when I finally went to sleep I was happy it was after midnight [a few mins] I made sure to tell Kashaa happy birthday and then I was gone
So yeah that was yesteday [ I forgot to post yesterday sowwy]
1st: I was running late to school because of my hair! this freaking afro would not be tamed i finally gave up when i got to school and just let it all out! =[ It wa hot as hell. I'm not not obsessed with how i look but it seems as though other people are. One of my fellow seniors kept making references to Don King. By second hour I was sick of the frustration [heat] So I asked my teacher for a rubberband {he gave me 2} so I finally tackled my hair [ LOL ] when I came back we had to finish out key questions as well as out APE [Advance Placement Economics] workbook pages. I could not concentrate [I swear I have ADD....ooo a butterfly! ] because there was too much commotion around me. I'm guessing that its because of the fact that that was the day that we had to decided whether we wanted to take the course as an Advance Placement course or a Honors course [there is no regular] I {of course} wanted to take it A.P. so that I won't have to repeat it in college and waste credits on something I already learned. Next I had lunch it was blah I didnt eat until AFTER lunch because I was at a loss for energy. I ate with my bestfrizend Lynn and this guy who's presence alone annoys me [ name will be withheld] so yeah I didn't like lunch too much I spent it sending Lynn a variety of unimportant and pointless text messages [ooo fun :-/ ] okay so then I went to T.V. production and watched Missy Elliott's Music Video in 3-D ummm we used "gels" which is a trans parent filter for lights [to change the colors of the lights] the colors weren't all that right for it but we could see some of the 3-D it was pretty cool. Umm then I went to school for the senior picture [for which i was wearing this blinding lime-green shirt and matching laces and earings--green is my class color] The picture was not going to be taken. I was like what ever I still got out of class [my last class] 30 minutes early [yahoo!] so I walked around danced to my MP3 player [freaking out freshmen and sophmores] because they don't know that i dont give a "whoot" about who sees me "acting a fool."
now...
when i went home...
the day went ....
SOUTHBOUND [on I-95] << i hope that runs north and south lol
um okay so I get home and my mother begins to "bug" me
first its my room needing to be cleaned. I was tired ..why? from my lack of sleep I have a hard time sleeping early
next.
She wants me to fold sheets with her. Understandable keep in mind I finished my room and I'm still tired...
okay
so we fold sheets
she begins to get on my case about not having a sheet on my bed. I had a sheet out but that wasnt the one she wanted me to use...wow! so now after she leaves I put on the one SHE wanted me to use. I am still tired , how ever now that I have been fighting sleep i can not sleep because I am restless so I start texting people and watching t.v . I am just about to sleep when I get a message from Anthony saying something to the effect of "I am planning something crazy for tonight" now he is not talking about me because he is not in the distance to plan something crazy with me so I say what? and he says something close to " I don't wnat to tell you because I don't want you to worry" now if you don't want me to worry then why tell me that your not going to tell me something that will worry me ?? [got it?] So now I AM WORRIED and I reply "yeah like im not already worried] and so he basically tells me he is planning to jump off a bridge in a car and jump out of the car with a parachute.............
.
.
.
.
.
THIS PISSED ME OFF. I mean what is his life not valuable? does he want to be Jackie Chang? NEGRO PLEASE! so yeah I say " have fun" he says "Oh word" or something like that and I say yeah cause I cant tell you anything you are on your grown... Now I dont know if he can read or not and he says he sees how it is and something about he's on his own? ok yeah so I go off blah blah blah i cant remember everythingi said then i told him to get at me when he is ready to be a man and stop thinking about him self and start caring about us. Because it seems like he always just thinks about him him him. okay so now he is liek what ever bye which kind of pissed me off more. and I sent him a long ass text being sarcastic about his life and blah blah blah saying he has it so damn easy which i know isnt true but what ever i was mad and wanted to piss him off for pissing me off. so now he calls me. I ignore him
he calls again
i answer:
"hello"
"[muffle muffle] shit about my life"
"what?"
"you don't know shit about my life"
"good bye"
click
I didnt want to hear his cursing and what not so I hung up so after that he calls and calls and clals and i hit reject reject reject then he sent me a text why did you hang up I said becauseI dont want to hear your cursing and hesaid call me now.
see
he lost his mind for a minute
I'm not his child
so
I said
excuse you?
and walked out the room leaving my phone to charge
and he said call me please
please call me
about 3 texts and a missed call l came back in the room
called him he says hello and i said what
yes
i know
rude..
so?
anyway he said he is only gonna say htis one time nad proceeded to tell meSOME of the shit he has been through and iono he sounded... sincere he ended up saying that no matter what he is gonna love me.. maybe now he knows how i feel cause no matter what I'm gonna love him 2.. but umm yeah I decided to tell him about the shit i went through in Jamaica and with my family about how I use to be a fighter and how I didnt have a fairytale past. Its not something I share with everyone the only people who heard this much about me are Lynn and Aakashaa and I think I told Nika some... actually that reminds me I need to let her know because she is my bestfriend but she doesn't know much about me in terms of my past. btu I let it outI let him understand how much I love him and I always will but yeah .. through out that entire thing I ddndt want to deal with anyone but my mom was getting on my case the whole time and took my bad mood personally I didnt want to explain to her what was going on so I let her believe what she wanted to believe. when I finally went to sleep I was happy it was after midnight [a few mins] I made sure to tell Kashaa happy birthday and then I was gone
So yeah that was yesteday [ I forgot to post yesterday sowwy]
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