So the last time I posted was what the 9th???? Lol that is a shame! Ok so let’s see if I can remember anything!
02.09.08
Um yeah it was kasha's birthday[19 yrs =P ] ... oh yeah the girls NEVER CAME! umm so yeah I went home blah blah blah called my friend to make sure that they didn’t come they didn’t ok yeah next day
02.10.08
it was a Sunday I worked all day I think my grandpa went home that day... =[
02.11.08
Monday had school I think I had a test or quiz in economics did not bomb it! yay! um yeah so what ever
02.12.08
realized that valentines day was coming up -- DAMN -- Anthony? no gift? damn.. lol um yeah so yeah
02.13.08
it hit me that the next day was going to be V-day umm yeah soooooo asked Anthony if I am getting a gift he said yes but he needs my address ... yeah about that I gave it to him got his and lost it! [Note to self ask for it again] when I got home I got in an argument with my cousin because she is such a neat freak like whoa! I mean ok look
I'm sitting on the computer for the hell of it right just doing bs on myspace chilling RELAXING and she comes home wanting to clean up ok good for u she wants me to get up so she cam clean.. Yes I could have gotten up but I mean its annoying that everyday she is cleaning like its some kind of addiction! and she stays complaining put it this way my anger was building up and I was sick of it like damn woman RELAX like me.... um so yeah I slide to the left in my chair she sweeps the dirt BEHIND MY Chair she tells me do not roll over the dirt and spread it because it is BEHIND MY CHAIR so I move FORWARD.... are you keeping up here? I moved forward so that I wouldn’t roll over the dirt behind my chair AND SHE GETS MAD so I call her ocd [yes mean I know but it was meant to hurt] because she was pissin me off. ANYWHO my mom comes home and u know hears Jodi [my cousin] telling me that she doesn't appreciate me calling her OCD expressing how upset she was about it. SORRY I WONT TAKE IT BACK... Honestly I do think she has OCD to a degree. Because when she cleans its like in an obsessed way everything has to be "just so" ... but yeah my mom wanted me to apologize I refuse to because ... I DONT WANT TO =] yes that is my mean side... anyway
02.14.08
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VONNA! [18 yrs =] ]
tried to miss the bus i swear i wanted to miss it lol didn’t want to see the lovey dovey things so i wore black [valendooms day lol ] um i wore a red shirt if that helps i wasn’t looking gothic but i wasn't looking cheerful either [ shirt said just shut up] ummm got a gift from Lynn =] I gotta love her! Umm then.... that’s it went home me and my cousin still weren't talking what ever what ever told people happy v-day
02.15.08
ummm ok so its senior skip day I did not skip... y? Because Lynn asked me not 2...Becausee she didn’t want to be alone for lunch... so I went it was pointless because we did nothing from 9:15- 12:25 there was a class competition no announcement nada... um so yeah I left after lunch with my friend kwame we took the bus only bus we took together was the #9 then parted ways... Umm I got home and SLEPT ... I was so damn happy to sleep then JAMAL who apparently decided to skip work im'd me through my phone waking me up I eventually got out of bed and went on myspace and then watched movies until 15 mins to 1 am then I went to my room and chilled ...
and today..
02.16.08
I'm at work but I have something to say....
um....
hmmm....
uhhhhh....
WELL HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE!!!! [ 15 yrs =D ]
Lol damn a lot of February birthdays! umm well her quince is today [celebration of her 15th birthday very important in Hispanic families!] so yeahhhh I might go if I get time... I don't know what time it is but yeah I have something else to do later on... So that’s about it I will try to update tomorrow
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Saturday, February 9, 2008
02.09.08 [part 1. Special]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KASHA[19 yrs!!! ]! I LOVE YOUUUUU!!!
I wanted to send her a gift but dammit i didn't get enough time =[
also today these girls are suppose to come after my home gurl at 4 pm, so as long as my mom is here ontime I will be there for her.
Pray for us. lol . jk U KNOW HOW I DO!
laterz.
-- Mrsz. Guap
I wanted to send her a gift but dammit i didn't get enough time =[
also today these girls are suppose to come after my home gurl at 4 pm, so as long as my mom is here ontime I will be there for her.
Pray for us. lol . jk U KNOW HOW I DO!
laterz.
-- Mrsz. Guap
02.08.08 [yesterday]
I forgot to post a blog yesterday, and yesterday was the worse! Lets go through the events
1st: I was running late to school because of my hair! this freaking afro would not be tamed i finally gave up when i got to school and just let it all out! =[ It wa hot as hell. I'm not not obsessed with how i look but it seems as though other people are. One of my fellow seniors kept making references to Don King. By second hour I was sick of the frustration [heat] So I asked my teacher for a rubberband {he gave me 2} so I finally tackled my hair [ LOL ] when I came back we had to finish out key questions as well as out APE [Advance Placement Economics] workbook pages. I could not concentrate [I swear I have ADD....ooo a butterfly! ] because there was too much commotion around me. I'm guessing that its because of the fact that that was the day that we had to decided whether we wanted to take the course as an Advance Placement course or a Honors course [there is no regular] I {of course} wanted to take it A.P. so that I won't have to repeat it in college and waste credits on something I already learned. Next I had lunch it was blah I didnt eat until AFTER lunch because I was at a loss for energy. I ate with my bestfrizend Lynn and this guy who's presence alone annoys me [ name will be withheld] so yeah I didn't like lunch too much I spent it sending Lynn a variety of unimportant and pointless text messages [ooo fun :-/ ] okay so then I went to T.V. production and watched Missy Elliott's Music Video in 3-D ummm we used "gels" which is a trans parent filter for lights [to change the colors of the lights] the colors weren't all that right for it but we could see some of the 3-D it was pretty cool. Umm then I went to school for the senior picture [for which i was wearing this blinding lime-green shirt and matching laces and earings--green is my class color] The picture was not going to be taken. I was like what ever I still got out of class [my last class] 30 minutes early [yahoo!] so I walked around danced to my MP3 player [freaking out freshmen and sophmores] because they don't know that i dont give a "whoot" about who sees me "acting a fool."
now...
when i went home...
the day went ....
SOUTHBOUND [on I-95] << i hope that runs north and south lol
um okay so I get home and my mother begins to "bug" me
first its my room needing to be cleaned. I was tired ..why? from my lack of sleep I have a hard time sleeping early
next.
She wants me to fold sheets with her. Understandable keep in mind I finished my room and I'm still tired...
okay
so we fold sheets
she begins to get on my case about not having a sheet on my bed. I had a sheet out but that wasnt the one she wanted me to use...wow! so now after she leaves I put on the one SHE wanted me to use. I am still tired , how ever now that I have been fighting sleep i can not sleep because I am restless so I start texting people and watching t.v . I am just about to sleep when I get a message from Anthony saying something to the effect of "I am planning something crazy for tonight" now he is not talking about me because he is not in the distance to plan something crazy with me so I say what? and he says something close to " I don't wnat to tell you because I don't want you to worry" now if you don't want me to worry then why tell me that your not going to tell me something that will worry me ?? [got it?] So now I AM WORRIED and I reply "yeah like im not already worried] and so he basically tells me he is planning to jump off a bridge in a car and jump out of the car with a parachute.............
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THIS PISSED ME OFF. I mean what is his life not valuable? does he want to be Jackie Chang? NEGRO PLEASE! so yeah I say " have fun" he says "Oh word" or something like that and I say yeah cause I cant tell you anything you are on your grown... Now I dont know if he can read or not and he says he sees how it is and something about he's on his own? ok yeah so I go off blah blah blah i cant remember everythingi said then i told him to get at me when he is ready to be a man and stop thinking about him self and start caring about us. Because it seems like he always just thinks about him him him. okay so now he is liek what ever bye which kind of pissed me off more. and I sent him a long ass text being sarcastic about his life and blah blah blah saying he has it so damn easy which i know isnt true but what ever i was mad and wanted to piss him off for pissing me off. so now he calls me. I ignore him
he calls again
i answer:
"hello"
"[muffle muffle] shit about my life"
"what?"
"you don't know shit about my life"
"good bye"
click
I didnt want to hear his cursing and what not so I hung up so after that he calls and calls and clals and i hit reject reject reject then he sent me a text why did you hang up I said becauseI dont want to hear your cursing and hesaid call me now.
see
he lost his mind for a minute
I'm not his child
so
I said
excuse you?
and walked out the room leaving my phone to charge
and he said call me please
please call me
about 3 texts and a missed call l came back in the room
called him he says hello and i said what
yes
i know
rude..
so?
anyway he said he is only gonna say htis one time nad proceeded to tell meSOME of the shit he has been through and iono he sounded... sincere he ended up saying that no matter what he is gonna love me.. maybe now he knows how i feel cause no matter what I'm gonna love him 2.. but umm yeah I decided to tell him about the shit i went through in Jamaica and with my family about how I use to be a fighter and how I didnt have a fairytale past. Its not something I share with everyone the only people who heard this much about me are Lynn and Aakashaa and I think I told Nika some... actually that reminds me I need to let her know because she is my bestfriend but she doesn't know much about me in terms of my past. btu I let it outI let him understand how much I love him and I always will but yeah .. through out that entire thing I ddndt want to deal with anyone but my mom was getting on my case the whole time and took my bad mood personally I didnt want to explain to her what was going on so I let her believe what she wanted to believe. when I finally went to sleep I was happy it was after midnight [a few mins] I made sure to tell Kashaa happy birthday and then I was gone
So yeah that was yesteday [ I forgot to post yesterday sowwy]
1st: I was running late to school because of my hair! this freaking afro would not be tamed i finally gave up when i got to school and just let it all out! =[ It wa hot as hell. I'm not not obsessed with how i look but it seems as though other people are. One of my fellow seniors kept making references to Don King. By second hour I was sick of the frustration [heat] So I asked my teacher for a rubberband {he gave me 2} so I finally tackled my hair [ LOL ] when I came back we had to finish out key questions as well as out APE [Advance Placement Economics] workbook pages. I could not concentrate [I swear I have ADD....ooo a butterfly! ] because there was too much commotion around me. I'm guessing that its because of the fact that that was the day that we had to decided whether we wanted to take the course as an Advance Placement course or a Honors course [there is no regular] I {of course} wanted to take it A.P. so that I won't have to repeat it in college and waste credits on something I already learned. Next I had lunch it was blah I didnt eat until AFTER lunch because I was at a loss for energy. I ate with my bestfrizend Lynn and this guy who's presence alone annoys me [ name will be withheld] so yeah I didn't like lunch too much I spent it sending Lynn a variety of unimportant and pointless text messages [ooo fun :-/ ] okay so then I went to T.V. production and watched Missy Elliott's Music Video in 3-D ummm we used "gels" which is a trans parent filter for lights [to change the colors of the lights] the colors weren't all that right for it but we could see some of the 3-D it was pretty cool. Umm then I went to school for the senior picture [for which i was wearing this blinding lime-green shirt and matching laces and earings--green is my class color] The picture was not going to be taken. I was like what ever I still got out of class [my last class] 30 minutes early [yahoo!] so I walked around danced to my MP3 player [freaking out freshmen and sophmores] because they don't know that i dont give a "whoot" about who sees me "acting a fool."
now...
when i went home...
the day went ....
SOUTHBOUND [on I-95] << i hope that runs north and south lol
um okay so I get home and my mother begins to "bug" me
first its my room needing to be cleaned. I was tired ..why? from my lack of sleep I have a hard time sleeping early
next.
She wants me to fold sheets with her. Understandable keep in mind I finished my room and I'm still tired...
okay
so we fold sheets
she begins to get on my case about not having a sheet on my bed. I had a sheet out but that wasnt the one she wanted me to use...wow! so now after she leaves I put on the one SHE wanted me to use. I am still tired , how ever now that I have been fighting sleep i can not sleep because I am restless so I start texting people and watching t.v . I am just about to sleep when I get a message from Anthony saying something to the effect of "I am planning something crazy for tonight" now he is not talking about me because he is not in the distance to plan something crazy with me so I say what? and he says something close to " I don't wnat to tell you because I don't want you to worry" now if you don't want me to worry then why tell me that your not going to tell me something that will worry me ?? [got it?] So now I AM WORRIED and I reply "yeah like im not already worried] and so he basically tells me he is planning to jump off a bridge in a car and jump out of the car with a parachute.............
.
.
.
.
.
THIS PISSED ME OFF. I mean what is his life not valuable? does he want to be Jackie Chang? NEGRO PLEASE! so yeah I say " have fun" he says "Oh word" or something like that and I say yeah cause I cant tell you anything you are on your grown... Now I dont know if he can read or not and he says he sees how it is and something about he's on his own? ok yeah so I go off blah blah blah i cant remember everythingi said then i told him to get at me when he is ready to be a man and stop thinking about him self and start caring about us. Because it seems like he always just thinks about him him him. okay so now he is liek what ever bye which kind of pissed me off more. and I sent him a long ass text being sarcastic about his life and blah blah blah saying he has it so damn easy which i know isnt true but what ever i was mad and wanted to piss him off for pissing me off. so now he calls me. I ignore him
he calls again
i answer:
"hello"
"[muffle muffle] shit about my life"
"what?"
"you don't know shit about my life"
"good bye"
click
I didnt want to hear his cursing and what not so I hung up so after that he calls and calls and clals and i hit reject reject reject then he sent me a text why did you hang up I said becauseI dont want to hear your cursing and hesaid call me now.
see
he lost his mind for a minute
I'm not his child
so
I said
excuse you?
and walked out the room leaving my phone to charge
and he said call me please
please call me
about 3 texts and a missed call l came back in the room
called him he says hello and i said what
yes
i know
rude..
so?
anyway he said he is only gonna say htis one time nad proceeded to tell meSOME of the shit he has been through and iono he sounded... sincere he ended up saying that no matter what he is gonna love me.. maybe now he knows how i feel cause no matter what I'm gonna love him 2.. but umm yeah I decided to tell him about the shit i went through in Jamaica and with my family about how I use to be a fighter and how I didnt have a fairytale past. Its not something I share with everyone the only people who heard this much about me are Lynn and Aakashaa and I think I told Nika some... actually that reminds me I need to let her know because she is my bestfriend but she doesn't know much about me in terms of my past. btu I let it outI let him understand how much I love him and I always will but yeah .. through out that entire thing I ddndt want to deal with anyone but my mom was getting on my case the whole time and took my bad mood personally I didnt want to explain to her what was going on so I let her believe what she wanted to believe. when I finally went to sleep I was happy it was after midnight [a few mins] I made sure to tell Kashaa happy birthday and then I was gone
So yeah that was yesteday [ I forgot to post yesterday sowwy]
Thursday, February 7, 2008
02.07.08
Well today my cousin turned 18! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TARYN! umm it was a blah day i didnt have all my english work.. i was distracted in economics....umm i didnt wnat to be in t.v. it was a blah day i dont know yeah ui have nothing to talk about still barely talked to anthony today
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
02.06.08
Life is so frustrating... I didnt talk to anthony much[ today]... I feel like i cant get a hold of myself I'm losing it! I dont like love anymore its frustrating... I still cant write.. I keep missing things in class becuase of [prior] engagements such as job shadowing and women of tomorrow. my grades are already below the 90's [ in the 80's] --slipping-- Eveerything is wrong..the people I love are lsing it! money is lost =/ finanical game NOT ON POINT money is tight its not freaking right. I cant get help for the life of me.. I need someone to talk to... but even if i had somene what would I tell them? about my deepest secret? no only lynn aakashaa diamone keaana and "wetwetnyc" [not syainger her name] know... i think i told james.. i donno damn it i think i told derek 2 lol some secret.. uh i just dont knw i need to understand what it is i did wrong.. hmmmm ok well i dont know who isreading this so i have to be carefuli guess... anywho! today i went to school went to an ettiquette class I LEARNED NOTHING NEW! surprised? i am 2! =] ok um then i went to tv... watched tv in tv and played pinball [woo.hoo.] um then i was on the bus... boring ride nothing to talk about played my psp... then i got home tired as hell ATTEMPTED to sleep my mother ended that now i cant sleep and i m typing ehre... umm lets see some people i want to talk about
LYNN! ok I love this chick [no not like i want to marry her so stop] I love her tho she is my bestfriend [one of three] she is soo amazing! i love everything about her because she's just different and thats important to me i hate bricks if i liked bricks i wouldnt have paint on my walls so nah! anyway she tends to not see what i see i mean she has a great personality her weakness is making everyone happy it sucks! because she needs to make herself happy I look up to her but she doesnt knw it [she will probably know after this post] i think she needs a happy boost i dont know how or where from we.. i know where from and thats in her! I dont know what to say right now because she isnt happy...like me she may smile but its a facade...trust me!
JAMES!!! that nigga can not control his damn money omg! its freaking ughhhhh i want him to be prosperous but he just wants stuff now! i can respect that impulsive people get places quicker but damn man! just .... lawd! i dont know i dont know im gonna pray for him lol i care enough about him to pray for him !!! oh yeah that reminds me...when i see him can someone remind me to smack the hell outta him for worrying me? ty =]..ok now one other thing .... job hunting time for him! i dont like where he works cause he doesnt so yeah
ANTHONY. mad at him..enought said he is so freaking hypocritical! just damn "communication is imporant to me baby" but yeah i cant text back cause i dont feel liek it im sorry y-- yo fuck that - shit i thought he was in the hospital or worse freaking damn shitaki ahh! damn. how can one dude get to me like this =[ yall probably think im crazy now :-< crazy in love dammit
NIKA! SHE MAKES ME PROUD lol good grades gooooood grades she is my other bestfriend!
lol i got nada to say tho
AAKASHAAA!!!!! =[ im losing touch with her...gotta work on that shit seriously i miss her im just like outta it for the past month damn... p.s. she is my other other bestfriend!
well thats it sooo im outty!
LYNN! ok I love this chick [no not like i want to marry her so stop] I love her tho she is my bestfriend [one of three] she is soo amazing! i love everything about her because she's just different and thats important to me i hate bricks if i liked bricks i wouldnt have paint on my walls so nah! anyway she tends to not see what i see i mean she has a great personality her weakness is making everyone happy it sucks! because she needs to make herself happy I look up to her but she doesnt knw it [she will probably know after this post] i think she needs a happy boost i dont know how or where from we.. i know where from and thats in her! I dont know what to say right now because she isnt happy...like me she may smile but its a facade...trust me!
JAMES!!! that nigga can not control his damn money omg! its freaking ughhhhh i want him to be prosperous but he just wants stuff now! i can respect that impulsive people get places quicker but damn man! just .... lawd! i dont know i dont know im gonna pray for him lol i care enough about him to pray for him !!! oh yeah that reminds me...when i see him can someone remind me to smack the hell outta him for worrying me? ty =]..ok now one other thing .... job hunting time for him! i dont like where he works cause he doesnt so yeah
ANTHONY. mad at him..enought said he is so freaking hypocritical! just damn "communication is imporant to me baby" but yeah i cant text back cause i dont feel liek it im sorry y-- yo fuck that - shit i thought he was in the hospital or worse freaking damn shitaki ahh! damn. how can one dude get to me like this =[ yall probably think im crazy now :-< crazy in love dammit
NIKA! SHE MAKES ME PROUD lol good grades gooooood grades she is my other bestfriend!
lol i got nada to say tho
AAKASHAAA!!!!! =[ im losing touch with her...gotta work on that shit seriously i miss her im just like outta it for the past month damn... p.s. she is my other other bestfriend!
well thats it sooo im outty!
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
02.05.08
This has to be fast i forgot to post todya it was another regular day with tests hard ass test! anyway i will *update* tomorrow p.s. I'm trying to become fluent in spanish =] later!
Monday, February 4, 2008
Monday, 02.04.08
Today was a regular day, I went to school, from 9:15 to 4:10 took the bus from 4:15-4:20 then from 4:35-5:12 It was pretty eventless. I made up my mind today that I need to settle down in school and get serious. I also decided that today would be the day that I started my journal. Right now I am not too comfortable with expressing my self completely over this but as time goes on I expect to...if things do not go as planned then I will be doing this the traditional way. Some random facts since I have nothing to talk about... I go out with Anthony who i am in love with , my bestfriends are Aakashawn Nika and Lynn [ not in a special order ] they are my other 3/4ths I have a friend name James who is so understanding its ridiculous! I like him [as a friend] and he knows and respects where we stand. My favorite subject is math... I'm a rapper but a shy one. I talk to this friend of mine [Shannel] over the phone a lot -- about nada! lol crazy sometimes we talk about important things we have thoughtful conversations. I am on a diet I was about 220 (peope claim its in my chest) I want to lose 60 pounds so i can be 160 the proper weight for my height and body frame. I do not do drugs I rarely consume alcohol and when I do I sleep like a baby! I do not go to parties or clubs I'm not a boring person. I see life as a big opportunity and I grab for it. Right Now I'm being --RUSHED! -- off of the computer so I have to go... leave a comment if you wish --
one love,
Natalia a.k.a. Mrsz. Guap
one love,
Natalia a.k.a. Mrsz. Guap
Quick Introduction--Form Style
Name: Natalia Foster
Alias: Mrs. Guap a.k.a. Shawna truth
Age: 17
D.O.B.: March 22nd, 1990
Nationality: American
Heritage: Irish-Jamaican
Location: South Florida
Status: In a serious Relationship [lol w/ a dude 19 yrs old? ]
Grade: 12th [Senior]
G.P.A.: Core: 2.74 Unweighted: 2.61 Weighted:3.19
Post-Secondary Plans: Two years community college the two years university[because of Florida Prepaid]
Career Dream: The Entertainment Industry as an Emcee
Career Goal: Own a production empire [ I am an entreprenuer]
Reason for creating this blog: I was told keeping a journal would help clear my mind so my writers block will be cleared
Posting plans: Everyday at least once a day, once in a while i will post a question for which i will appreciate answers; also i would appreciate any advice offered. If you are going to be judgemental, I don't care it is as always your right and choice.
Websites:
Myspace: www.myspace.com/shawna_t [anyone can add me on there]
Music Myspace: www.myspace.com/mcshawnat
LetsBeef: http://www.letsbeef.com/ under deja vu
HiphopCrib: http://www.hiphopcrib.com/ under deja vu
Xanga: http://www.xanga.com/rhythm_and_rhymes [rarely post]
Messengers:
Aol : Qu33n of Flawda
Yahoo: Ja_pr_princesa
Emails:
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